All of my other posts I have been able to think up a clever (in my opinion) title to draw the reader in, this one has no clever title.
I have been struggling with how to write this post for quite some time. How diplomatic and political I should be, since some of the people I will be writing about have the very real potential to see it. Should I speak to these people about my concerns and frustrations first? Or publish a vague, but obvious enough, blog post and wait for them to figure it out? After nearly 2 months of trying to figure out an answer, I found out that I don’t have one.
In the past couple of months I have experienced some incredibly horrendous examples of leadership on multiple fronts. I believe I can speak on leadership with a level of expertise because I have been trained in it, and I have witnessed both tremendous, and terrible, examples of it over my almost 13 years with the military. However, these are still just my opinions. Everyone approaches leadership differently. I like to consider myself mature enough to recognize that even though I may not agree with how someone is leading, does not mean they are bad at it.
The people I am going to write about, I can honestly say, are very bad at it.
Person one, military leader.
Poor, poor communications skills can destroy whatever other positive leadership attributes someone can have. If you cannot communicate what your goals, ideas and guidance is, how the fuck am I supposed to accomplish my mission. From not passing information onto soldiers, to flat out not making decisions about what needs to be done and then leaving it up to your subordinates (not delegating, deflecting) drains an organization. My pet peeve is communication. Especially in this day and age, where all it takes is a text message that can take you 10 seconds to write, there is no excuse for not keeping your soldiers in the loop every single hour of every single day if needed. I believe you can be a good military leader without having deployed, however when it is pretty obvious you hung out in a unit that was non-deployable to avoid a deployment, then you makes snide comments about the issues your soldiers are dealing with after their deployments? Yeah, suck a cock dude.
That is really a rant. Sorry for that. The heart of my issue with this leader is how he is destroying a program that took years to build up into a respected learning institution. The program continues because of the dedication of the soldiers beneath him, it continues in spite of him. We are doing a damn well job, imagine how much better we could be doing if we had amazing, or even average, leadership?
Person two, civilian managers
Ughhh…I separated the two because they usually have two very different skill sets. I consider myself a competent NCO, I don’t know how well I would manage in the civilian world, mostly because my vocabulary would be limited.
Let me start by saying this, you can be an amazingly nice and caring person, and really be friendly and super nice to those you are given the opportunity to manage, and be a terrible manager at the same time. I think some people (those without proper training) equate being nice and liked by your employees as being a good manager. You are wrong. Things I look for in a good manager is someone that can sit me down and articulate what I need to do to improve my performance at work, and guide me through those steps in a way that works best for both of us. Someone that has earned respect through demonstration of knowledge and authority, not because you buy us donuts. That is not respect peeps, that is because we like donuts. You have to be able to learn about your employees and figure out which way is best to communicate to them. Some people do better through emails, some face to face so there is no misunderstanding. Some people are okay being corrected in a group, others need to be in private. Failure to take the time to figure this stuff out, failure to even want to figure this stuff out, results in poor management issues.
When people are working in an emotionally toxic, or severely stressful, work environment it effects there health. Since the new year I had been feeling terrible. Migraines 5 days a week, nausea, no appetite, no desire to work out (even though I wanted to get back in shape) a constant pain in my upper shoulders, and I was drinking way more than I should have been. I finally figured it out when a month ago I got so upset about going to work one Monday, I threw up in the shower and preceded to cry and huddle on the bottom of the tub (picture it!) I left work, and started at a new place, and within 3 days most of these symptoms subsided. I started sleeping through the night on most nights, the headaches are gone, appetite back and everything else. I was feeling much better. A terrible working environment did that to me. My new place of employment had many of the same people, it was the exact same type of work and hours, the only real difference was the management. See what I am getting at here?
Bad leadership makes people physically ill sometimes. Sadly, the leaders are almost never effected.
Person three, Non profit leadership
This one hurts the most for me to write about, because it hurts a lot of people, and damages a lot of potential good in the world. I wanted to be as involved in the veteran’s community when I got home as possible. I wanted to keep that connection, and most importantly help other veterans who didn’t have the support system (I thought) I had when I got home. I joined the VFW but have not been as active as I wanted to be, I just don’t feel like I can connect to a bunch of older white men. I looked into Team Rubicon but had to focus on finishing law school and let it fall to the way side (for now.) I found a lot of good people, and good support, in Team RWB while I was studying for the Bar Exam.
A non profit organization I have been a part of for nearly two years, shall remain anonymous for this post, designed to reconnect veterans to their communities, has such incredible potential to help veterans, and civilians, reconnect and improve everyone’s lives.
Now, now our best volunteers are stepping back, because they are devalued, treated poorly and discounted. For me the worst part is that a good chunk of the volunteers stepping back from the organization are veterans, those that it was founded to help. This one person, this one incompetent leader, is slowly destroying what our chapter of the organization is capable of achieving, when it is needed most. My personal experience with this individual was so upsetting, I almost completely left the organization. I stopped going to events, I stopped engaging with those I knew from it, I dropped off the map when I needed these people the most. When I was going through such a hard transition time, this person pushed me away. It may not have been their intention, but it was the result. Now I see it happening to so many of our other dedicated volunteers. It angers me, but more than that it hurts to know that other veterans are suffering because of this.
Take away, grand poomba of guidance and wisdom…I don’t have any idea. Fuck, I am 31, I know nothing. I barely feel like an adult 95% of the time.
I guess my grand point, from my perspective is, if you are going to be in a leadership position, if you are going to have the blessed opportunity to get to manage and lead people, work hard at it. Learn all you can about how to lead, how not to lead, what to do to take what you have and improve it. I learned more about how to be a leader by watching people fail at it, then deciding that I would not make the same mistakes they did. I learn more from bad leaders than good. Sadly that is because I have spent more time around bad leaders than good leaders.
I will leave you with one last thought. If you find people are abandoning your organization, team, unit, at a rate that suggests they are rats escaping a dying ship, don’t look at them and wonder what they have done to fail at working with you, look at yourself and wonder how you have failed them as their leader. If you are the only one standing on your team, it is not because you are that amazing, it is because you have failed your team that hard.